Chravie T

Gawsh, where I’ve been.

I’ve spent The last few months not on tumblr. Completing my “transformation”. Took out my piercing, No more supper skinnies, gym and soccer practice everyday. It’s amazing how much things have changed in such little time. I found a girl I can trust that’s not a slut and am about to graduate in less that 20 days. Where has the time gone. I’m no longer a delinquent but a man. I’ve found new connections and have even wrote out business ideas with my new friends. You wouldn’t even recognize me. I Can’t even say I listen to the same music, I have no time to stay underground. In a way I’m sad but I’ve done nothing but change for the better. Like I always say, “I will be successful” 

Prom, This upcoming weekend. Looking forward to going out with a bang. Especially since I put a great deal of money into it. Thank god for stocks, my new friends got me into it. Man I’ve really been wasting my youth on the wrong people, ha. It’s going to be a great night, all my others just lacked in numerous things. 

I’m looking back at what I use to write on here. Ha, pathetic. 

Gawsh.

I’m starting to think it’s me. 

I want that.

I wish someone would make me smile, but mean to do it. 

GAWD FUCKING DAMN IT!

THE ONLY FUCKING THING THAT GETS TO ME! NOW I FUCKING CANT SLEEP!!!

I have this album on my computer I don’t go to.

I Have to search names because I’m scared to scroll. 

Fuck everything right and I have to fucking wake up In like 5 hrs… 

Hey, I lied. Just another shout out.

This is completely fucking stupid. I don’t know how you can say and act like you could care less about me then tell me “I’m proud of you”. 

Let’s just break some shit down.

I, ME, This guy fucking writing this right now never cheated one you. Okay I didn’t want to and had no reason to. So shut your fucking mouth seriously. I may have been flirt but I never a cheated on you. 

You can bring up the “Well Ellen” shit all you want But I still have messages with that whole conversation. How when you kissed some dude when you left for Louisianan. I was pissed. 

Okay, lets keep this going so you’ll STFU.

When I was at Gulf Breeze and I told you all that shit with my other ex and how guys would tell her anything to get with her. Yeah you fell for the same shit. Congratulations.  

I left my school to come to you, ha. 

But lets think, every guy that ever talked shit about me, did he not try and get into your pants? Not only that did he not say the same thing to another girl and you knew what he was saying to them? 

See I got over the heart crushing thoughts of you being with another dude. Because I can’t stop you and there’s no point in wasting passion over a manipulative whore. 

But oh fucking wait I’m not even close to being done. Because I know that if you are reading this, you probably have that sinister smirk on your face all happy that you’re getting to me. 

Funny thing you fell so far into all the lies you herd that you started lying to me. Not to mention yourself. 

Soo, You could care less about me? Why the fuck do you always talk shit to every fucking girl about me? Like please explain? I say nothing but positive things about you and all you do is Fuck my friends and talk shit, And your only excuse is ” Well the must not be too good of friends then” Okay well I’m not mad at the guys FOR BEING FUCKING GUYS. If there was a beautiful girl I would say and do what ever to get her as well. Just what males do. 

You blame everything on me…Okay what else would you do. 

You’re are the biggest waste of time, money, and fucking air. 

He rapped me? BULL FUCKING SHIT! 

Okay please anyone else that reads this tell me if this is rape.

-Girl sneaks out to sit in a car with a guy she’s been flirting with for a few weeks behind her boyfriends back. They have talked about doing stuff (DON’T you dare deny it ether because technology is a bitch, and so is text history from service providers)  and all this other shit. They are both in the back seat. then other stuff happens, but she clams rape because I found out. Reading all those texts, you seemed damn sure willing to me then talked about it after like it was okay? Okay maybe those weren’t even your text history I was reading. Why the hell would a girl still talk to her alleged “rapist” ? Not only still talk to him but talk about hanging out again? Okay, okay, Maybe I’m not looking at the whole picture. Maybe that’s how you would cope with something so serious, my bad. But what really makes no sense is you wanting to go a summer tour with this dude to California. Haha. I mean classy shit. 

I’m going to skip you fucking all those other dudes and talking to friends and all that lovey dovey bull shit. Because that’s too long and I’m pretty sure Facebook and Faith helped with that. Not to mention private confessions from the guys you can “trust with your life”.

Lets get to my favorite part. Near the end of my summer.

I finally completely had you out of my life. I found someone new. Then you want me back. Like lets fix this up a little so you know why I’m pissed about it. I was Happy with out you. I had a girl that wanted me, who didn’t lie and when I did something or said something to her she appreciated it. But even though you were talking and fucking all these dudes. you decided to make me think you wanted me. Even though you left me when you had me because The other girl wanted to do with me after. Thanks for that. But lets get back to the main shit. Soo I lied twice that summer. About sleeping with some blond chick and kissing that girl down the road. Okay yeah I cant really explain why I lied I guess I was just soo obsessed with getting you back, I Wanted you to think I was saving my self until you came back. For the most part yeah, I did. But like I guess from hearing from his sister why you would go over there and hearing from your friends what you do when you leave the state gave me the thought that maybe I should keep my personal life to my self as well. I just don’t see how you can think you did nothing wrong , haha. Like really ? Are you retarded? It’s okay I already think you are. I’m just wondering if you know yet. 

Okay I’m done being rude =] 

Lets get past what happened after more friends and what you did to other guys lol Lying bitch. 

Lets get to the part where I “hit you” in the lunch line. Anyone else reading this that managed to get this far, more help please?

-I was standing in lunch talking to my friends =], when all of a sudden I turn to get my lunch trey I grazed girl and everything was fine. Just a slight bump and weird look ( why the fuck is my ex so close to me) Not only did she cut through a door pillar and my back she she tries to make it seem like I intentionally physically harmed her. But lets go back to the line. I get my lunch, sit down. Everything is fine. Shes 1 table across for me. Maybe it was the fact that I didn’t acknowledge the bump or the fact that She purposely tried to go through less than 4 inches of me and a solid object. Who knows but she burst out in tears at lunch and makes up some story to all her friend about me hitting her. Funny you can tell your friends but you cant go to an administrator. Good thing I did, and all your bull shit stopped when we got the cameras involved.

Seems like your down fall in all of this is documented evidence. 

Okay but you still could care less about me blah blah fucking blah.

You keep trying to sabotage my relationships , continue to bring me up, and talk shit to other girls that are interested in me… why?

Please don’t deny that ether. Cell phones have this thing called a recorder. They are used when guys that are my friend sit on your bus and record what you say. Maybe you should fuck them too.

Maybe it’s my fault though because one point not too long ago I would have, like I’ve said plenty of times ” drop anyone for you” let that ruin me.

Keep my name out of your fucking mouth, so sick of you.

That’s great, don’t like me. I know what I did and didn’t do . I also, unfortunately know what you have done and didn’t do.

I’ll forget you one day, You have to live with the though of me forever. If it’s the fact I was your first or how much time we were together or feuded.  

It’s fucking stupid. Next time you want to talk to me you better have been diagnosed with cancer you or your mom or dad need a kidney because I really want nothing to do with you. 

Okay this is kind of late too but I also missed out on moving back to California for you several times. Js Idk seems like I should have that somewhere. 

I don’t know what else to say. I’m sure if I thought, I’d think of more but i’m done with this. Just grow up, keep my name out of your mouth, and think before you say another bad thing about me again…

Found a date to prom ^_^

Well proms. 
This girl is beautiful beyond imagination, well at least to me.

I haven’t wanted to go with anyone at all then I started talking to her and I just thought “That’s who I want.”  

(Corny) I know but she’s got a lot I like and very talented in many ways. 

Although I don’t fully know her, I can’t wait to get to know her more. 

-Stuff like this is why I won’t let people see my Tumblr =s

I fell asleep.

I had the best dream in the world =O 

I know what I want now =D

That was a little to easy =s